Cherished wrote:

If someone was calling me a shady ***** and using hateful words there is NO WAY I would tolerate it. Ever. Stop communicating with him. Yes I think that your vibe is confusing everything here, and that comes down to self love. Being in your position I would make no contact for now and focus exclusively on reaching my own alignment.

Now this doubt is coming on strong inside me too. I feel like he won't ever be loving again to me. But that is probably because of how upset I am right now. I know that not contacting him right now is the only way to raise my alignment.

A lot of what he is doing is reflecting the harsh critic I am towards myself because I do treat myself that way. I really need to love myself again. I need to recenter myself.

Cherished wrote:

holistichealing wrote:

Cherished wrote:

If someone was calling me a shady ***** and using hateful words there is NO WAY I would tolerate it. Ever. Stop communicating with him. Yes I think that your vibe is confusing everything here, and that comes down to self love. Being in your position I would make no contact for now and focus exclusively on reaching my own alignment.

Now this doubt is coming on strong inside me too. I feel like he won't ever be loving again to me. But that is probably because of how upset I am right now. I know that not contacting him right now is the only way to raise my alignment.

A lot of what he is doing is reflecting the harsh critic I am towards myself because I do treat myself that way. I really need to love myself again. I need to recenter myself.

 
Absolutely, and its wonderful you have the insight and ability to understand that this is a reflection of your own beliefs. He will be as you want him to be,  WHEN YOU accept yourself in all of your perfection.  You already know this is between you and you.  He will always be there,  but you want to change your perception of you.

He just told me, "Seriously, get the hell out of my life." I haven't even said anything to him.

Cherished wrote:

Don't perpetuate it. It's just your fears being reflected. Step back and gather your thoughts. YOU are creating this. It's time to revise your story😘

I really want to, I am getting tired of this same of story of him saying that I sicken him and that he doesn't care about me. Especially when he was the one that came to me. Saying he sees me as nothing more than terrible. The last thing he said was grow some balls or the next guy I date will be abusive towards me and I will keep coming back to him. It really hurt me because he pretty much is saying to date someone else. These are my current thoughts of him.

"He sees me as a horrible person."
"He sees as his personal problem."
"He hates me."
"He feels I ruined his life."
"He feels I try to get my way."
"He feels like I am a complete stranger."
"He doesn't want to know about me."
"He doesn't care to let me vent."
"He always feels like I try to make him feel guilty."

These are my good thoughts about him:
"He enjoys my company."
"He gets happy when he sees me outside."
"He wants to keep me safe."
"He wants the best for me."

My thoughts are very contradicting that's why there is always a war. But it all comes from my lack of confidence.

Last edited by holistichealing (2/26/2016 10:18 pm)

I would not let anybody call me a ***** unless they want to  meet their maker early ! I have a zero tolerance for disrespect ! I would definitely would have to put him in his place but I am more outspoken and aggressive in nature. Do not let him destroy your vibe ask yourself if you really want him and focus on you and only you. And do not allow any man to call you out of your name! Remember you are the prize