hey ther folks..
it used to get real time uneasy when i used to miss her during nightime..
after i have been into the loa..and with the continus efforts of leli..shy and cherished..i have started to get this LOa thing into my mind..
i still remembrr the horrible days of weeping and remembrring what could possibly i have done to just make things a bit better..


now i plan what shall i be doing when she ll be coming back in physical form..though at times i have a fall in my energy but mostly i am high only  keeping people around me happy and loving them and ofcourse myself...

what just keeps me going is that whenevrr i have a doubt or something..i ask janvi..whenever i am getting low i start to imagine hrr being with me..where she tells me that i have been doing really great..i am already halfway there..i imagine her boosting me telling me that this is just an exam in which i need to pass..she tells me that god wanted to see..how much i love her..and she dosent wants me to quit anyways.....


this gives me a pump of energy..janvi in real and th one i imagine are real different..the present one dosent talks or wants me in her life..but imaginary one says..it is just part of procedure and calms me down..says..she is waiting for me...and i must not...quit.become a better me and even more loving..and god is going to create a way himself....



while bedtime i prepare my bed and hers tooo..i used to create a mess on the othrr side and now i feel that its hers side and which needs to be clean as well..i prepare all the blankets and night time stuff..when i am not sleepy i talk to hr and find hrr responsing well..

in the morning while i wake up..and before i leave for office..i never forget to kiss her and hug her..because that what makes me happpy..i know she sleeps till late so i dont distrb her much...this way i feel shes wd me..and keeps me going knowing shes waiting for me to come from office and chat with her..



any advices..suggestions..responses are welcome....


much love to all :*

Last edited by mayank.sharma2993 (2/15/2016 5:43 am)