Cherished wrote:

You have to just find some peace.  A month.  Easy.  Embrace it.  Use it to find your balance,  and to startvagain.  This is a journey about you.  And what you have proven beautifully is that you powerfully manifested your relationship back,  but the underlying fears and insecurities still remain.  So at this very moment you are still blocking the full manifestation.  .

It's OK,  relax.  Know your only job is to feel better and better and better by soothing your thoughts..  Lean towards that.  You need to drop the past. With LOA the chances are endless. Take comfort in that. Nothing is lost, but you have a real chance to gain EVERYTHING if you'll only do the vibrational work. 🌈

You're absolutely right. I need to focus on building myself and leave the past in the past.

I have a question?! Is it okay to visualize us where we are in a happy fantasy like world, surrounded by beautiful flowers, fireflies, and love all around us? As well as imagine our hearts both glowing and there being a light where we are connected? Including us dancing, hugging and kissing in this world? Is this fine to visualize to raise our vibration?

Blah, my emotions are all over the place. I will be fine, then sad. I keep thinking he won't talk to me ever again even though he said for a month. He has done it before. He had said he wouldn't talk to me for a month and then never spoke to me again. It just hurts he said he doesn't care about my situation. Especially when he said I lie and twists things to get my way.

He doesn't get my feelings at all. Or maybe I am overthinking. But he made me cry really bad because he knows how my family is, but he still wants to say those things.

My real problem is not the past. It's that I feel like he will never see the true me, so it messes me up. That's why he keeps looking for past problems because I keep thinking that way. How do I have faith he will see my true self?

I want him to remember that I was once a happy and loving person. But High School messed me up with rumors and things, so I closed off and became a different person.

How he forgot the person I truly was it what hurts me, I wasn't always like this. Sure I had a negative family, but even then I had friends who helped me stay positive.

So how do I believe that he will have faith that I am a really happy and loving person again?

Sam wrote:

You say he forgot the person you were and you weren't always like this.. so start trying to be yourself again! You'd be AMAZED how quickly some amazing things fall into place once you focus on how YOU feel and get yourself in w better vibe. I think you need to care more about yourself than him right now. I mean, you always should, but you know what I mean. He can only reflect what you're putting out. Forgive yourself for the way you used to be as you know better now. Start being the person you want to be, the person you know that you can be! Love is the only things that matters. Love for yourself, love for him, love for absolutely anything. I know it's scary, but you turned things around once and you can do it again. And again if you need to. This is all about finding your way in life and if you make love and feeling good your main mission, everything else will fall into place so easily it will blow your mind. 💛

Yes, I think I still kind of depend on him to be happy. Which of course could be overwhelming him. I need to be happy with myself again, my confidence was one of the things he was attracted to about me. This month is the month of healing and my birthday is this month. I really want a good birthday this month.