A month break doesn't have to be a bad thing. Maybe you need some time away from him to work on yourself? Take that month to figure out the mistakes you make, and how you can alter them and replace them with positive behavior.

My suggestion would be not to even focus on your past mistakes so much. Leave them in the past. Focus on the behavior you can exhibit now to be the best person you can be.

holistichealing wrote:

So my darling and I were doing fine in the beginning. But my household has made me anxious which lowered my vibration. The negativity around me really overwhelmed me.

So I started repeating old relationship habits. I started taking my phone when my darling is looking at it, I started making up lies about my mother being late to go home, so I can stay long. Buy then I told the truth about my mom kicking me out.

He doesn't believe me because he is upset with my repeated mistakes and I don't want it to all end the same way. He doesn't want to see me for a month now because of it. I am rebuilding the past again and I want it to stop. PLEASE HELP!!! How do I stay positive to stop preventing myself from repeating bad habits? I need help.

Yes, sometimes we know very well everything but all we want emotional support, someone to listen all that's running like hell in our mind at those moments when we feel low. It happens. So first you don't need to feel sorry about making a negative post...actually no, it's not negative, it's just a step closer towards awareness. You're willing to change it so you're here.

Important thing is when we feel damn low and force to feel good at the same time, it gets worse. Your mind fights more to make you feel bad about the situation and it gives you reasons why you should feel that way, so you feel like you're trapped. Best thing, according to me...if you're not feeling good at the moment, STOP FIGHTING. Accept the facts and LET IT PASS. If you can talk to your friends, then talk or write everything down. It helps to feel better.
A month break is good thing as suggested above. Use it to work on yourself. Break those past habits by working on your SC. Past habits are all SC beliefs that you have stored. You just need to imagine yourself as you want to be and act according to that version in your imagination. Imagine him being happy with you and an ideal you...then things will change. If you're worried about past things, know that past is no longer available. It has gone..so you don't need to keep remember it. Just know it's not there anymore...it's today where you're to make your future better by giving good thoughts today. I hope it will help you...if not then it definitely will help me lol (kidding)
I need to remind myself too. Thanks for the post

Shy wrote:

holistichealing wrote:

So my darling and I were doing fine in the beginning. But my household has made me anxious which lowered my vibration. The negativity around me really overwhelmed me.

So I started repeating old relationship habits. I started taking my phone when my darling is looking at it, I started making up lies about my mother being late to go home, so I can stay long. Buy then I told the truth about my mom kicking me out.

He doesn't believe me because he is upset with my repeated mistakes and I don't want it to all end the same way. He doesn't want to see me for a month now because of it. I am rebuilding the past again and I want it to stop. PLEASE HELP!!! How do I stay positive to stop preventing myself from repeating bad habits? I need help.

Yes, sometimes we know very well everything but all we want emotional support, someone to listen all that's running like hell in our mind at those moments when we feel low. It happens. So first you don't need to feel sorry about making a negative post...actually no, it's not negative, it's just a step closer towards awareness. You're willing to change it so you're here.

Important thing is when we feel damn low and force to feel good at the same time, it gets worse. Your mind fights more to make you feel bad about the situation and it gives you reasons why you should feel that way, so you feel like you're trapped. Best thing, according to me...if you're not feeling good at the moment, STOP FIGHTING. Accept the facts and LET IT PASS. If you can talk to your friends, then talk or write everything down. It helps to feel better.
A month break is good thing as suggested above. Use it to work on yourself. Break those past habits by working on your SC. Past habits are all SC beliefs that you have stored. You just need to imagine yourself as you want to be and act according to that version in your imagination. Imagine him being happy with you and an ideal you...then things will change. If you're worried about past things, know that past is no longer available. It has gone..so you don't need to keep remember it. Just know it's not there anymore...it's today where you're to make your future better by giving good thoughts today. I hope it will help you...if not then it definitely will help me lol (kidding)
I need to remind myself too. Thanks for the post

Omgggggg I love this!!! Thank you for this post and this reminder

Sam wrote:

Cherished gave me some really great advice that helped me a lot. Stop trying to get away from negative feelings because if you do that they are still the topic you're focusing on. Instead, just lean towards more positive feelings. Lean towards love, don't fight against the bad feelings.

Thats simply great advice!!!  

I think what really upset me was when he said he doesn't care about what happened. But I shouldn't focus on that, instead focus on him being loving and caring.