Ok so hope I caught your attention :-)

I am reading this amazing book someone here suggested: E-squared Nine ...

and first of all she talks about Kansas on every page :-) i told you my guy lives there so that is funny, i have been reading it on and off for the last couple of days

and this part is amazing so wanted to copy it for you and myself too:

"Filmmaker Michael Moore, in a commencement speech, gave the following advice: “All you boys should learn that once you give up on that girl, she will come to you.” In some ways, our intentions work the same way. By believing we desperately need a miracle or something we don’t have now, we deny Truth. We suit up with the wrong attitude. Anytime we look for an answer, we make the false assumption that the answer isn’t already here. Intending love or happiness or some other desired goal defeats the whole purpose. It assumes that the outcome of life is still in doubt. It’s not. Praying is not a matter of bribing God. It’s simply understanding the higher laws that override the lower law of the physical plane. To plead or beg or to act like it’s not here is to suppose duality, not unity. And unity is what we’re aiming for. You have to live under
the assumption that your intention has already happened. You have to feel as if it has already come to pass—to get those ducks lined up … to get all those waves in laser-like coherence."

Today I was thinking about like if he doesnt want me, who cares, I have created wonderful life and became amazing woman and feel great over the last year or so and I felt in a way like why should I do more of visualizing us and all that and then I read a post here from Forget about if she doesnt want you you are not losing she has lost :-) and that felt like yes exactly he is losing not me so what I enjoy myself and dont need to think about him at all to feel the happiness :-)

and then I read this part in the book andd just thought that I have really done a lot of visualization so in a way no need to do it much any more. since beginning of this year I have done it only few times and as I am getting more and more busy with my business and my own plans I feel like I even dont have time to visualize so why bother :-)
it feels good actually, freeing like I have my own successful life, guys want me, compliment me so there is nothing missing really :-)