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Thank you, that's what I'm actually doing right now. No contact, enjoying my holidays, practising self love
Are you now with him though?

So recently a dramatic event took place in my life.
Yesterday morning (20/07) I learned that my close friend died in a car crash that night. He was 18, I am 17. It's my first 'death situation'.
I remember that night I wore a black pyjama for the first time in my life, I was reading sad poetry and couldn't sleep all night (but back then I didn't know about the accident). For the past week I also had been thinking about death quite a lot and I've seen a great deal of images of my and my ex crying because of someone's death. We will see each other on the funeral (we're good friends now). I hadn't been thinking about anyone specific, only us but mainly crying and giving support to each other.
What are your views on death, do you think I attracted it (according to LoA I did but when it comes to death people's opinions are divided)? I would appreciate your honest replies...

Wooow it's insane!!
I just received a message from him saying the girl he flirted with friendzoned him!!! She just wanted his money and gifts
Thank you Universe!!

...but I'm friendzoned, as he is trying to be in a relationship with another girl. Some time ago I made a post saying we're back in touch after 1.5 years of absolute no contact. We are really good friends now and he keeps asking me for advice how to be better with her. I know we'll eventually be back together, but I find it difficult to fully ignore this whole situation. He sends me screenshots of conversations with her, he also says he misses another girl that he had a sex-relationship with... My question is: how do you ignore current reality? I know being hurt doesn't help at all, but sometimes I just can't stop feeling of sadness or frustration from developing in my soul I meditate and do RS (Lanie Steven's method) as much as I can, I try to feel calm and at peace, but sometimes I have breakdowns that don't help current situation at all. What are your methods?