Knowing this should make me feel better... right?


But the thoughts come flooding in my head over the nights alone, fights about nothing, times where I was judged so harshly, being shames for being pregnant with HIS baby, the family jokes about being paranoid and insecure and worse the fact he shared us both intimately. I should me mad enough but I'm hurt.

Now h tells me nit to call unless it's about our kid...I don't call because he doesn't call about our kid. I am now the enemy as if I ruined his life when I finally learn it was him all along.

No one has apologized, no one has asked if I was ok, he hadn't even acknowledged all the pain could've been avoided.

How can i still love or miss a person who would do this? I want LOA to remove it from my soul. I was finally feeling like I could breathe and now this.

I'm hurting so much right now.

BooLala wrote:

Easy question, answer may be difficult tho... Is there ever a situation that's impossible to change, Is there ever a time we should give up on an ex??

Heck yes! If in prison, best you, Denys your children, harms you or them, mentally unhealthy, they are holding you back from greatness.

I love my ex, but I became very stagnant with him...I am a fire ball and it was blown out. Nit his fault. I let it happen. Now with LOA I'm learning like energy had to play it's part. I was tired of trying to winhim back ..his energy isn't a vibrational match for what I want for our kid.

It changes your desires when you start working on you. It feels better each day knowing there's a human being preparing for you just like you are for them and you both are enjoying the journey.

Giving up is optional and depending on circumstances may be necessary. But always consider where you are now and knowing where you wanna go. Sometimes you gotta leave them behind to chase your goals and the ones who still love us will be a moth to our flight as me. Just my thinking.

So I have been reading the success stories if detaching, moving on, start feeling like it is, going general and the universe starts to deliver.

I have been going general... visualized my faceless perfect man so much I wake up feeling like he is beside me or I'm going on a date after work...its crazy but feels so good.

My goal had been to move from the east coast to Texas eventually and raise my kid there with my best friend.

Everyday I see Texas license plates and I live in D.C.!!! I asked God/ the universe for resolve from my feeling of being blocked and literally hours later my bff calls and tells me one of out favorite artist is performing in Texas in 2 weeks. I said whoa....this is a sign I need to go but am broke...guess what?!? Spirit had round trip tickets for $177:0... That's crazy.... So now I'm like bugging out right..

I begin the vegan challenge just to get some peace and clarity and focus in something else.

It works btw!

So today I wake up. I'm happy, my kid is adorable telling me mommy is pretty, i see my quota of Texas license plates...and visualize my future mister man... This time I added in my mantras that he loves music like me...he loves my kid...he is loyal...and he treats us like precious stones. I asked for a sign today that I'm on the right path to meeting him...

I go to the craft store guess what aisle is 75%off....the TEXAS paraphilia aisle!!!! Guess who is crying...ME! ON TOP OF IT my favorite artist...the one I'm going to see in two weeks in Houston.. is playing on the phone of the lady beside me. How on earth.. he is a Christian rapper named Andy Mineo...not alot of people are riding around playing this...so to have that in top of all the Texas stuff on sale I was overwhelmed.

I may very well meet my "and they lived happily ever after in two weeks."

My ex will always be in my heart but the man in my heart, that's I haven't met feels so good right now and I think I like this LOA thing!

Avaelle wrote:

MissMiles906 wrote:

Nope I don't feel invisible in my world. But to him. I guess I don't understand the question.

Ok good.  I was going to say that if he is making you feel invisible then the most important thing would be to work on that.

He and I barely speak. Honestly he doesn't make me feel anything. It's been so long to feel. But when I come around he acts as if I am. It HURTS.

We both messed up, but he chose to leave...I chose to beg..and then he denied our kid and then I git ugly. After months of cooling off we spoke and i could hear the damage was done and he was fed up. Lies were told and family divided. Now I'm saved...git into Christianity and LOA ant his family thinks I'm a broken soul who has gone nuts. I'm a joke. To me I feel more sane and calm. And can see my faults and I've acknowledge them without an apology from any of them...just more finger pointing.

I want to scream some days and reveal all their lies and chatter about one another but hating me binds  them...

As for him, he retreats to his room, stays outta town for work and never checks on his kid unless his mom asks to get her for the weekend. When I'm there he will look but says nothing.

This is someone who couldn't take his hands off me or super excited to share a story... Now I fear too much time has passed to even be friends.

Em wrote:

Always remember that it's not hate that is the opposite of love, but indifference. That might help you figure out where you stand with him.

I believe im at indifference. I don't think he has any feelings for me..no hate and no love. Nit even like or respect for the years spent and being his kids mom. I am really reaching out because I dunno how LOA is supposed to work in this instance.