authenticself wrote:

Cynthia wrote:

authenticself wrote:

But at his core he feels upset and that part of him always apologizes to me, but his true problem is that his ego gets in the way of understanding. However, I am still at fault because many times he has encouraged to follow my heart with actions and I keep letting fear get in the way of it. He is not totally wrong because he has tried to help, but my fear just won't go. I been through so much in the past with someone else, that my current relationship is that of me closing him out. Like if you seen the relationship you would understand his side too.

 

Don't you already feel rejected? How much worse could it be if you told him you loved him and showed him you loved and appreciated him?  Then at least you would have a better idea of where this relationship stood.  This is perhaps a bit different, but when I was 17 I had the best boyfriend I ever had in my life. I loved him, and he's the one I should have married. I sometimes treated him badly for no reason at all, none that I knew at the time anyway, and it had nothing to do with him. He was wonderful. If I would have apologised to him I know he would have forgiven me and we could have mended our relationship, but I was afraid he would reject me, so I didn't say anything, and I've spent my whole life regretting it.

I don't feel rejected, I feel like I keep running away from the reality that he loves me and had I just followed my heart we would not be in this mess. Cuz I know he still loves me....and another thing I struggled with too was never apologizing. He always apologized, but not me. Then I started to but my actions never followed. If I were to do something differently and followed through with my heart I know we would be happy. I know what to do, but this fear just seems to speak louder all the time.

Obviously, fear is holding you back. I am a lot older than 17 now, and what I said before has been one of the biggest regrets of my

es4life wrote:

Thank you Cynthia

Do you know the source to the Neville examples? Id like to read them if you could find them. 

In terms of being happy with my own life, i think one of the biggest changes that happened after i broke up with my ex and had him come back begging, was that i kinda started to feel like it really doesnt get worse than that so nowadays im not as afraid of a lot of things...including getting hurt. So not that I can't be happy without him, I was happy before i met him and I would be even if he left, but I met this guy when i was not even looking and everything has been perfect and I do not want to let him go. 

 
The Neville Goddard lecture is Live in the End.

Do please let me know how you get on.

whitebutterflies11 wrote:

Cynthia wrote:

whitebutterflies11 wrote:

I wanted to see what you do because I'm kind of all over the place. I have like all of Lanie's mp3s, but I tend to use the PW for the same reasons you do. However, lately I've been falling asleep during them because I do them at night. I've also been doing the 25 day challenge so I do the visualizations that are part of that as well. I like that it gives you specific scenarios to follow. I can really embellish on them. & I do them to meditation/ relaxing music. For instance today my afternoon challenge was to visualize me and my POI at the beach. So I really took it and ran with it. I felt so happy during - almost on the verge of tears. That's really only happened once before.

As for PW, I'm still kind of confused as to how to go about doing it "correctly." Even though it's been said that there's no wrong way to do it.

I need to do what you do with imagining him with me daily. The picture is a good idea. I know I feel silly doing some things, but I think that's okay.

I still think my issue is being in a state of lack. It's so hard to live in the end result for me. I want to so badly. I want to let go and be happy!!!

 
As you probably know, there are 2 versions of PW, the one I have on which she speaks words meant to be from him and another one that has, I think, some blank space where you say your own. I think you're worried about nothing. There is no wrong way, perfectionist, and I don't think it matters if you fall asleep. It doesn't with hypnosis, and this is pretty much the same thing. I have also done her love spell several times and cutting the cord sometimes. I forgot to mention that Glenn Harrold's Get the Love You Want is excellent, and I use that sometimes. I've got the cd, but he probably has an mp3 download of it as well. I change what I do when what I'm doing starts to feel boring or I'm tired of it and, dare I say, even start to feel negative feelings towards it because I ha

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